Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Bored with life

I think I might be getting depressed again, maybe the Cymbalta has plateaued, but I'm going to the doctor today. Perhaps he will suggest a nice glass of red wine in the middle of the afternoon for a pick me up.

I don't feel much like blogging, I feel like vegging out in front of the TV. In front of the TV in my beautiful pretend bathroom that has a Jacuzzi tub and TV with remote and lots of channels.

So I'll probably be AWOL for awhile. I keep thinking I'll refresh and I do, a little, and go like gangbusters, then I get bored and tired again. I never thought I'd be bored with blogging, but I sort of am.

Sorry, guys. You loyal few :).

12 comments:

Elizabeth-W said...

I'm highly doubting he'll suggest the wine. If he does, please find another dr :)
Sorry you're feeling blech. It's the pits. I'll keep checking in on ya'.
Big hug.

m&m said...

I'm sorry you are not doing well.

Barb said...

Writers do have to have a way of distancing themselves from time to time, in my opinion. Perhaps we do our best observation when we are a little out of sink with the world.

I do find myself feelng so much more connected from all the blogs that I read and LDS forums. And don't stay away too long lest I go through withdraw.

Seriously, it is good to see some of the 3-D world! Nature!

I hope you are feeling more like yourself soon.

Ann said...

Hang in there, honey.

Silus Grok said...

You can do it.

I've been there... depression is a soul-sucking-siren, but you can beat it.

* hugs *

Anonymous said...

annegb

Sorry you're not feeling well. Why not forget yourself and go help someone. It's no use waiting for a new drug or a glass of Chardonnay to make things better. Maybe if you think about it you can help someone by continuing with your blog. However you help someone it's bound to lift your spirits. I've never met anyone who was depressed while helping others.
Hugs and kisses

annegb said...

You have now. Perhaps I never introduced myself properly LOL.

Actually I know a lot of exhausted depressed women who do nothing but take care of their husband and kids and family and friends, so I guess I don't agree with you.

Although I never thought of blogging as being helpful. It seems kind of self indulgent and narcissistic to me. That I do it anyway.

I think I'm just very tired. I was going to take this week off from my grandchild but there's been a babysitting crisis, so I have Rowan today. She's a precious little stinker.

I really didn't mean to sound so down, I'm more tired and considering a break from blogging and was hoping to ease into it without a big announcement.

I was just thinking of CS Lewis quote about the helpful woman: "you could tell the people she was helping by the haunted look in their faces."

I'm so tired I'm punch drunk. Not wine, though :)

Barb said...

Punch drunk lol! I get that way on little sleep too. It sounds like you do need a good rest. Nothing wrong with that. :)

Barb said...

I did want to briefly address the comment that anonymous made about never meeting an unhappy person who served others. Service is great and it does help with one's outlook as you can readily find people who have trials that you do not think you could handle.

Depression is real. And those things that usually bring a measure of happiness do not fully lift someone out of that state if they are clincially depressed. I am not saying you should not try to do everything you can including exercise, rest, eating right, and the standard Sunday School answers. We just need to remember that there are people who do all those things and have periods of sadness or even apathy.

And peaks and valleys are normal for all people even those who are not clincally depressed. The difference is often the duration and also the severity.

I can say things like.. I was depressed and almost insane and still got an A in every class so everyone should be able to do that. Yet, I have only been me and that is how I cope with insanity and depression. Other people cope in other ways. In addition, there may come a day when I am so depressed or mentally ill that I will be bed ridden or completely out of my mind. I hope that day does not come. Knowing it could, is somewhat scary. And I hate how I must humbly acknowlege how others being kind to me including many Priesthood leaders has allowed me to function at the level that I do to do. I have pride and don't like to be beholden to anybody. I don't know where I would be if I were not met with kindness at almost every turn a long the way. Even those that have said things that I did always receive well were so well-meaning.

Lisa M. said...

Hey wild woman, I am coming to CC next weekend for h20 polo tourny,

wanna do lunch!

annegb said...

Lisa, Yes!! That would be so great. Are you going to break my heart like you did last time? I'm fragile, you know LOL.

I honestly didn't intend to sound so deeply depressed, although perhaps I am. Not a big deal, really.

E-Mail me, I lost your phone number. gardnera@netutah.com

Barb said...

I'm shy right now about being a guest blogger. Annegb, we need to hear from you when you get a chance.